Tuesday, November 23, 2010

In the Beginning

The Scoot and Torin - November 6, 2010


Torin - November 7, 2010

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Cascading Locks

He didn't have a name when I went into labor. I wanted to see him first. People have been asking his name for months, starting as soon as it was so obvious that I was pregnant that people felt safe asking about it (I think this was somewhere around the 8 month mark). The absence of a name has prompted a number of nicknames. My family called him "Husker" for months - ever since the name was proposed by my brother-in-law, Steve Hatch. Meatloaf Surprise was something the Scoot and I came up with and posted on Facebook while asking for silly name suggestions. His final pre-birth nickname, Fabio, was given to him by the birth team after they caught the first glimpse of his long dark hair. Becca Gattey, our doula called his amazing tresses "Cascading locks" which ultimately led to the nickname, Fabio. I may have laughed, or tried to at least - I don't actually remember. I do remember finding it funny in a desperate, exhausted sort of way. I know, I was laughing inside, but I can't be sure it ever registered to the outside world. Really, I had a single-minded goal - to push that baby out!

It all started with a slow leak around noon on Saturday. Suspecting that my membranes had ruptured, I called Women's Health Care associates to let them know and then had Scott take me into their office to have the rupture verified. We came home and tried some brisk walking and timing of "contractions" that obviously weren't productive since I was struggling to identify them. The on duty midwife, Helen Welch and I chatted on the phone a couple of times and decided that I would try to rest at home and come to the hospital either when I was done laboring at home or the following morning if labor hadn't started. We were hoping to avoid induction and we weren't disappointed.

Around midnight I felt the sensation of a bubble popping in my low abdomen and it was immediately followed by what felt like a strong menstrual cramp. After that, cramps continued at what felt like regular intervals starting less than ten minutes apart. We never seriously timed the contractions. I let the Scoot know and left him to sleep while I walked around the family room during the contractions and rested between them. Around 3am, they were uncomfortable enough that I didn't want to wait much longer for the car ride to the hospital, so the Scoot and I headed to St. Vincent's Hospital in Portland, OR.

I didn't have them check my progress in triage, so I'm not sure where I was when I got to the hospital. The ruptured membranes gave us a free ticket to stay and it seemed safer to minimize our chances of infection by just having Helen check me when the time seemed right. We moved to a very nice and comfortable labor and delivery room and our first nurse Shaila had the jacuzzi tub ready for me about the time the contractions were becoming quite painful. I can only describe the sensation as having someone try to pry my hip bones apart - ouch!

While the jacuzzi didn't technically ease the pain, it did make it much easier to relax into it. This is the point where we asked Becca to leave her warm bed and join us at the hospital. In the mean time, Helen and Scott sat with me and helped me cope with the contractions. Helen checked my progress and said I was 5-6cm. Scott echoed my thoughts when he mentioned that I was likely hoping she would tell me I was further along. After that, I really tried to relax into the pain visualized my cervix dilating in hopes of shortening the duration of my suffering.

In less than an 45 minutes there was bloody show and I was ready to push. Helen told me not to fight the urge. She checked me again and I was already a nine. Becca got their just in time to meet us all back at the labor and delivery room for the grand finale. At that point, I thought the hard part was over - silly me.

Little did I know that I would push for THREE hours!

We tried a number of positions multiple times: on the toilet, squatting at the bar, all fours, side laying, and finally flat on my back with my knees pulled up to my shoulders. Would you believe that the last, seemingly counter-intuitive, gravity unfriendly position was the one that ended up working. It seemed to be the only position where I could fully relax my glutes, hips, and pelvic floor. I started out lifting and holding my own legs ... later I was too tired and Scott and Becca each held a leg for me each time I felt a contraction coming. Apparently, I was hugging my legs in so hard with my arms that I looked like a body builder with straining muscles and bulging veins.

The little guy (lucky for me) made his way very slowly through the birth canal. The hardest part was getting him under my public bone. It wasn't until he passed that point that I was actually able to feel progress. It hurt having his head in the birth canal and I wasn't able to fully relax in the space during contractions, but I tried. Somewhere around 7am the midwives and nurses changed shifts. Helen wanted to finish my birth, but was soooo tired after a long 24 hour shift, so Kate Pelosi picked up where she left off. Just as an interesting side note, Kate also delivered Helen and Becca's babies years ago. She's really awesome.

I wasn't watching - I was pushing for all I was worth and then falling back to the bed exhausted to rest as best I could between contractions. I can't believe I was able to push for so long. I had no idea I had that kind of strength. Kate had Scott and Becca hold my knees up by my shoulders between contractions near the end to keep the baby from taking that one step back after the two steps forward. It wasn't comfortable, but it really helped and it wasn't long before he made his way into the world. Kate eased him out over several contractions with 3-4 pushes.

Our little Torin James was finally born at 8:37am Saturday November 6th. He weighed 7 pounds and 3 ounces and was 20.25 inches long.



The poor little guy had quite a cone head and a bit of a bruise on the back of his head from the long hard journey through my narrow pelvis. He emerged with the umbilical chord wrapped around his neck twice, though you never would have guessed it from his solid heart rate during the long push. I was literally too tired to look, so I never really saw it myself, but Becca said his chord was very long - one of the longest she's seen. Lucky boy! He exercised his lungs after about a minute and pinked up right away as he lay on my chest. I just clutched him close and relaxed and forgot about the labor and let the reality of my new role sink in. I know I'm biased as his mother, but I really do think he is exceptionally cute.

Despite or perhaps partly because of the long push I didn't tear at all. However, I most likely owe my in tact perineum to the skillful manipulation of Helen and Kate. They took full advantage of the time between contractions to stretch, support, and prepare me for the passage of Torin's little cone head. I had three individual stitches internally for what Kate called "skid marks." I was (gingerly) up and about immediately after Torin was born and have been fully mobile ever since. I felt like I'd been turned inside out down South, but after a little over two weeks I feel a lot more like myself and have lost over half of my baby weight - of course that's the easy half.

I should add that after hugging my knees to my shoulders for all I was worth every few minutes for nearly three hours my upper body was amazingly sore. I could barely lift my arms first thing in the morning for several days (they felt like jello) and my tailbone is still a little bruised over two weeks later. Although it felt like someone had taken a jackhammer to my pelvic floor, my abs still felt like my own and I was grateful to find that I still had full muscular control, no low back pain, no stretch marks, and a beautiful new baby boy!

Our new family - November 6, 2010

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Biohazard

This has NOT been a good week. On the recommendation of my midwife, I got a flu shot last Thursday. By Saturday night I was sick. Coincidence? I think not. It's been about 10 years since I got a flu shot because I got sick last time too. I haven't been around any sick people, so I can't think of anyone/anything else to blame.

So, since Sunday I've gotten to add nasal congestion and constant dribble, plugged ears, and sleep deprivation to the standard late pregnancy discomforts like massive swelling (I think I have cankles), 24/7 nausea, scalding acid in my esophagus, joint pain, and most recently tingling and numbness in my right hand (love that swelling).

I could go into labor at any time and most of me wishes I just would, but I'm worried about staring the ordeal sick and exhausted. I don't figure the congestion will be a huge issue, because the stress of labor is likely to clear my sinuses. I just hope the virus clears up before it moves into my chest. The last thing I need right now is bronchitis and/or a sick infant.

I don't think I'm ever going to get a flu shot again.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Beanie

It's much easier to cope with being preggers when I don't have to go to work. That said, I would still love to have the baby RIGHT NOW! I made this little infant beanie for the boy a couple of nights ago. I'm putting it in my hospital bag now.



I hate cleaning, will I still get the sudden irresistible urge to clean something when I'm ready to go into labor? ... or could the sudden irresistible desire to knit 10 things at once be considered nesting? I try to clean something every day just because it needs to be done, but I have to force myself to do it. I'd rather knit!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

40"

I think I must have measured wrong last month when I posted 39.5" because I'm "only" measuring 40" now, but comparing the two pictures I look HUGE now ... even more huge than last month when I thought I was huge beyond huge. I am due 2 weeks from tomorrow, but hope that I won't have to wait that long. I can no longer fold in the middle like a normal person and that makes anything that requires sitting up straight nearly impossible. I am quite swollen, but can still see my ankle bones ... if only just. My belly button is still an innie, probably because it was so cavernous to begin with (as the Scoot claims). It doesn't look like the belly button I remember.

Today is my last day of work for this year. I've been counting down the days to pregnancy leave for weeks now. It's really hard to find a comfortable position at my desk and my back gets so tired by the end of the day. It will be really nice to just rest for a few days (hopefully) or weeks (wahhhhh) until the baby is born.



This is my most favoritest maternity shirt ever. Its so soft and comfy and still fits with room to spare. It's perfect for the cool Autumn that seems to have crept in over the last few days. I don't usually wear blue, but I make exceptions for comfort. Ironically, blue was the color in season during my pregnancy. Just recently my earthy colors started coming into season, but there's no point in buying more maternity clothes now ... as if I actually cared about my appearance at this point. After today it's sweats, t-shirts, bathrobes, and slippers for me!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Defective ...

The cats or the product?



Have you seen the commercials for Emery Cat? It's a scratchy pad that is supposed to trim cats nails when they scratch ... If they scratch. I have no idea if it works because so far none of the cats have figured out how to use it (as intended). Actually, that may not be true. I figure Pierre the Evil Genius knows that it will shorten his extra pointy bits and avoids it on principle. I'm pretty sure Azriel the Inbred has no clue what it's for. Schrodinger is the only one who uses it and guess what he thinks it is ... A TOY! ... or more specifically a hiding place. He races into the living room and dives under head first. He thinks that if his head is covered we can't see him ... even though ONLY his head is covered. This is currently his favorite game and he hasn't tired of it since we purchased this emery cat refill at Petsmart weeks ago. I'm afraid I'm going to have to pull out the nail trimmers ... or take these lethal kitties to the groomer.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Simple Pleasures

It's Asian pear season in Oregon! I used to think they were an expensive delicacy to splurge for when they actually showed up in the grocery store. Now I live somewhere where they actually grow. Fresh Asian pears are divine and I can have one for free every day right now. They are local, and fresh, and super tasty, and as an added bonus ... I actually WANT to eat them. With a stomach as fickle as mine is right now, wanting to eat is a serious added bonus.

We've been getting fresh produce from our garden too. I especially love the sweet, earthy carrots. Tomatoes are coming out of my ears and we've just sampled our first three ears of corn ... mmmm. Nothing compares to fresh produce. I had forgotten that tomatoes could be so flavorful that I could just eat them sliced up with a little salt and pepper. I can't believe it took me so long to plant a garden. Special thanks to Steve and Erin for helping us get our garden started even though they didn't get to stick around long enough to reap the benefits. Next year you two!

The pregnant belly is measuring at an astronomical 40" and the stomach must be the size of a small, squished Asian pear. No wonder its the simple things I want most.